So, Bee told me two days before Valentines day that had he had an extra hour between leaving work and me showing up at his house, he would have been adding a marriage proposal to his plea that we should get back together. Since then, we've talked about the topic quite a bit. We both know that that is where we want to end up. Without a doubt, we both know that we are meant for each other and that marriage will be the next step in our relationship. However, when, and on who's timetable are a different thing.
Bee is 40 years old. He has three kids. He has been engaged three times and married once. He's been there. Done that. In Fact, his Divorce only became "final" in March. He is happy now, and knows we will be together forever so he is in no big rush. I am confident in him and our relationship, especially considering he is willing to move to the other side of the Country with me. To him, it will happen someday. Someday when he gets around to doing it.
Me, on the other hand, I feel this internal drive. This need, if you will. I am 29. I'll be 30 in November. Growing up, I always imagined myself married with several kids by now. I feel like I am behind the eight ball. Like all my peers are passing me by. I know that marriage and children are a totally serious commitment and it should be based on when you are your partner are ready, not on what everyone else is doing. I get that. I do. But, I can't help but feel impatient. I feel like he wants to, but just doesn't really care when and I'm like if you don't care, then what are we waiting for because I am ready now.
At the beginning of March, we got on the topic of our wedding one night after the kids went to bed. At the time, his divorce was still pending. He said something to the fact that he just assumed that since we both agreed that we wanted to get married we would wander into a mall someday and buy a ring we liked and just "get married" whenever and that he already just kind of assumed that we were in that mind set. I informed him he needed to formally ask me! To which he replied, first with a heavy sigh and an eye roll, "Well, do you wanna?". At that point I told him to ask me when he meant it but that he had to be divorced first and follow the asking with a ring...a real one...not the one he fashioned out of a bread tie.
Since then, his divorce has been finalized and I'm waiting. I'm impatient, I know. I am trying not to rush him or make him think I am in a rush because when he does propose, I want it to be because he wants to, not because he thinks he has to. Yet, it's hard to see the people around me get married and start their families. Bee's brother got engaged last September/October and their wedding is going to be this October so, there is planning for that. Then, my high school best friend got engaged on Saturday. People I went to school with are getting engaged and starting to have babies. These are the two things I have wanted most out of life and I just feel like I've done the hard part of finding the one I want to be with, the rest should be easy!
Then, since this has been on my mind lately, I am even dreaming about it now! haha! Last night, I dreamt that we had gotten married and we were at the reception and Bee's Grooms Cake was a Bee cake. Like, it was shaped like a bee and decorated like one. It was soooo cute. I told him about it this morning and he laughed. He said that we should totally have one made for his grooms cake and that he wants to get married in a black and gold tux. Which, I was totally down for and I even found my brides maid dresses! It would make his day anyway because he (as well as myself) is a huge Steelers fan and he can tell people I let him have Steelers colors. haha! So, now I have a color scheme if and when he gets off his butt and asks me to marry him lol!
The funny thing is, I don't want a big extravagant wedding. I won't be a bridezilla and I don't need fancy lavish things. I just want a simple church wedding with maybe 50-70 people, if that. I don't even care if people bring us gifts. In fact, I might request they don't. Then, maybe have the reception at our friends house who have a large property where we could set up food/BBQ, have the pool and hot tub, people drink, swim, play, enjoy the day and the sunshine. That's it.
Ah well. It will happen....eventually. I just need to be patient I suppose. Although, he told me last night we can't have children because they will come out stupid. He took my car to Walmart and came out looking for his truck. Freaked out because he couldn't find it, even after hitting the panic button on his key. He got so upset he almost started to cry and go into a panic attack before it dawned on him that he had my car...
great, another "fight" on my hands... LOL! I told him "Stupid or not, I am having your baby!"
hahaha!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
My boyfriend is a dork...
This is what I put up with on a daily basis....(yes, he has shorts on)
But I love him because of, and in spite of, his dorkyness :)
Happy Mother's Day!!
Yeah, I know. I am a day late. Story of my life, you know.... lol
So, our weekend went by way too fast. It had it's ups and downs, but in the end, turned out fine.
Friday night, I got home and Bee loaded us all up in the car and we went to go pick up his 16 year old, "J". We got out to her house, and as usual, she wasn't ready. But that was partly because she didn't know we were coming. I can't say I blame her. Even I can't always follow this shared parenting schedule. After we picked her up, we headed home and just stayed in for the night.
Saturday morning we woke up when my alarm went off at 8am. Bee had a game in Pittsburgh and we still had a lot to do yet to prepare. He got up and started getting ready. I slept till 9am. I was so tired and with the weather report of rain, wind gusts up to 40mph, and temps in the low 50's, I wasn't feelin it. Finally, I rolled out of bed and went into the living room to join the family. The kids were hungry and "J" offered to make eggs. Now, on one hand, it's a help to me, because I don't have to. However, whenever "J" cooks, she destroys the kitchen (She may be 16, but 16 is still a "kid", and I can remember being 16 and not caring about the clean up process part of cooking) So, I would have to clean up after her anyway. At least to clean it to my standards. Plus, the kiddos wanted bacon too, and "J" doesn't know how to cook bacon (really, she's afraid of it...which I totally understand THAT too...I wouldn't cook it either until about a year ago) So, I went in to help make breakfast. By the time that was done, we all ate, and I got ready, it was time to go.
That's about went the day went down hill. I was irritated and not in a good mood. Listen, I am fully aware that I need to learn to let things go sometimes. Ok, most times, but at the same time, I had a right to be upset. Also, one key bit of information about me is that I don't hold grudges for the most part. If you snap at me, or yell at me and hurt my feelings, if you give me a hug and a "I'm sorry" and mean it? It's done and over with and I have already forgotten the incident. However, that didn't happen Saturday until the end of the day.
I can not STAND lack of organization. I can not STAND being rushed around and then waiting. Bee knew guys needed a ride to Pittsburgh. As usual, we all offered to carpool. Bee borrowed another player's Yukon (the guy couldn't go. His son was going to Prom and the after party was at his house). He gave away all the seats and told me I was going to have to drive me and the kids. Ok, I get it, but it still upset me. Then, he told people that needed rides, were to meet him at the practice field and somehow work it out to get there because he wasn't going to traipse around town picking everyone up at home. Then he told them to be at the field at 11:30am. Now, even though, it was going to be me and the kids in my car, I had to go to the field too. JUST IN CASE a guy shows up and needs a ride, they would have a place to stick him. My thoughts? You should know by THAT morning if you need a ride, and should let someone know before and not just show up. But whatever. The practice field is 35 minuets in the opposite direction of where we needed to be and I didn't have much gas to begin with. We got there at 11:15. Bee didn't show till 12:45. Why? Yeah. He was picking everyone up at home. Then, the guys who did come to the field didn't start showing until 12:15...He was crabby. He snapped at me several times. Barked orders at me. It also pisses me off when I am left out of the plans. As in, Everyone else knows what we are doing, where we are going, except me. I find out on a need to know basis....like the kids...and that pisses me off to no end. So, we get on the road.
I am tired, cold, crampy (oh yeah, THAT too..), I have three kids in my car who have already been cramped up in my small little Civic for an hour and a half. They are whining that they are hot/cold/tired/bored/hungry/thirsty oh-my-god-are-we-there-yet, and we haven't even left yet. Not to mention, it's raining cats and dogs and I have to pee...AGAIN. Needles to say, it was not fun times in my car. Finally, after an hour of stewing and having my eyeballs float, I call Bee to tell him I was turning off to go to the bathroom and I would meet him there. His phone rang twice and it went to voicemail. I threw my phone and turned off. We went pee in an ugly, smelly outhouse (welcome to the Country, ya'll) and got back on the road. While I was pissed off, I am forever still considerate. I sent Bee a text telling him I would meet him there. Had to pee. blah.
I get frustrated with my outdated GPS (I have a better one on my phone that I pay to have unlimited access to, but it's kinda slow and the signal is weak, so like one cloud out and I am doomed). However, it did ok with directions until I hit Pittsburgh. Once I got in the city, the roads were too close together and it couldn't update fast enough and I had to turn around twice which only added to my frustration. Oh, and I had to pee...AGAIN. We FINALLY make it, and oddly enough, I beat Bee there. There are no bathrooms and I don't go in the woods. Bee got there. Snapped a few more times at me and I took my stuff and went to the stands to film. The game starts and the tape isn't rewound. I missed the first two plays. I'm steaming. It rains, it pours, the wind kicks up, flipped my umbrella, I had to miss three more plays to deal with that. Air Raid sirens went off ( I hear there was a tornado spotted near by). Our guys lose. 0-7. However, Bee made it there with all his guys, and he played so his mood is instantly improved. Mine is not. I snap at him. I feel bad, I apologize. I feel better. Then we hit the road and eventually stop for dinner and get greets me inside with a big smile and my heart melts and I feel better.
We get home, finally, and it's late. Kiddos hit the hay. I wait for Bee to finish dropping people off. He gets home and we cuddle up in his chair under the blanket and he asks me why I was so upset today. I tell him and he apologizes again and I was fine and over it. We spent the rest of the night cuddled, watching YouTube videos and "Nerd T.V" Eventually we fell asleep in the chair and at some point got up and got in bed.
Sunday we slept in and relaxed most of the day. Then we went and got his mom and met up with my whole family for dinner. It was really nice! The only down side is, being that it was Mother's day, it really got me thinking about me and Bee. How I want to get married, had kids of my own and kinda want to start on that soon. I want to be a mommy. A REAL mommy. Sure, I love his kids. I always will and that will never change. But, I want my own to have that special bond with. That feeling was intensified last night when I found out my best friend from when I was in high school got engaged this weekend. There was always an unspoken rivalry between us even though we were friends. We were 6 days apart. She was older and wanted to be the first to do everything (lose her virginity, get her license, have a boyfriend etc) but I was the more open, less bitchy, "prettier" one, so, I got to do all those things before her..and I always just kinda felt like I would be married with kids before her....but I guess not...
Oh well. This has turned into a long rambling post. Ha! All in all, it was a good weekend. Not anywhere near long enough and I was up waaayy too late last night and now today I am dragging. Bee and I both agreed, tonight it's early to bed!!
So, our weekend went by way too fast. It had it's ups and downs, but in the end, turned out fine.
Friday night, I got home and Bee loaded us all up in the car and we went to go pick up his 16 year old, "J". We got out to her house, and as usual, she wasn't ready. But that was partly because she didn't know we were coming. I can't say I blame her. Even I can't always follow this shared parenting schedule. After we picked her up, we headed home and just stayed in for the night.
Saturday morning we woke up when my alarm went off at 8am. Bee had a game in Pittsburgh and we still had a lot to do yet to prepare. He got up and started getting ready. I slept till 9am. I was so tired and with the weather report of rain, wind gusts up to 40mph, and temps in the low 50's, I wasn't feelin it. Finally, I rolled out of bed and went into the living room to join the family. The kids were hungry and "J" offered to make eggs. Now, on one hand, it's a help to me, because I don't have to. However, whenever "J" cooks, she destroys the kitchen (She may be 16, but 16 is still a "kid", and I can remember being 16 and not caring about the clean up process part of cooking) So, I would have to clean up after her anyway. At least to clean it to my standards. Plus, the kiddos wanted bacon too, and "J" doesn't know how to cook bacon (really, she's afraid of it...which I totally understand THAT too...I wouldn't cook it either until about a year ago) So, I went in to help make breakfast. By the time that was done, we all ate, and I got ready, it was time to go.
That's about went the day went down hill. I was irritated and not in a good mood. Listen, I am fully aware that I need to learn to let things go sometimes. Ok, most times, but at the same time, I had a right to be upset. Also, one key bit of information about me is that I don't hold grudges for the most part. If you snap at me, or yell at me and hurt my feelings, if you give me a hug and a "I'm sorry" and mean it? It's done and over with and I have already forgotten the incident. However, that didn't happen Saturday until the end of the day.
I can not STAND lack of organization. I can not STAND being rushed around and then waiting. Bee knew guys needed a ride to Pittsburgh. As usual, we all offered to carpool. Bee borrowed another player's Yukon (the guy couldn't go. His son was going to Prom and the after party was at his house). He gave away all the seats and told me I was going to have to drive me and the kids. Ok, I get it, but it still upset me. Then, he told people that needed rides, were to meet him at the practice field and somehow work it out to get there because he wasn't going to traipse around town picking everyone up at home. Then he told them to be at the field at 11:30am. Now, even though, it was going to be me and the kids in my car, I had to go to the field too. JUST IN CASE a guy shows up and needs a ride, they would have a place to stick him. My thoughts? You should know by THAT morning if you need a ride, and should let someone know before and not just show up. But whatever. The practice field is 35 minuets in the opposite direction of where we needed to be and I didn't have much gas to begin with. We got there at 11:15. Bee didn't show till 12:45. Why? Yeah. He was picking everyone up at home. Then, the guys who did come to the field didn't start showing until 12:15...He was crabby. He snapped at me several times. Barked orders at me. It also pisses me off when I am left out of the plans. As in, Everyone else knows what we are doing, where we are going, except me. I find out on a need to know basis....like the kids...and that pisses me off to no end. So, we get on the road.
I am tired, cold, crampy (oh yeah, THAT too..), I have three kids in my car who have already been cramped up in my small little Civic for an hour and a half. They are whining that they are hot/cold/tired/bored/hungry/thirsty oh-my-god-are-we-there-yet, and we haven't even left yet. Not to mention, it's raining cats and dogs and I have to pee...AGAIN. Needles to say, it was not fun times in my car. Finally, after an hour of stewing and having my eyeballs float, I call Bee to tell him I was turning off to go to the bathroom and I would meet him there. His phone rang twice and it went to voicemail. I threw my phone and turned off. We went pee in an ugly, smelly outhouse (welcome to the Country, ya'll) and got back on the road. While I was pissed off, I am forever still considerate. I sent Bee a text telling him I would meet him there. Had to pee. blah.
I get frustrated with my outdated GPS (I have a better one on my phone that I pay to have unlimited access to, but it's kinda slow and the signal is weak, so like one cloud out and I am doomed). However, it did ok with directions until I hit Pittsburgh. Once I got in the city, the roads were too close together and it couldn't update fast enough and I had to turn around twice which only added to my frustration. Oh, and I had to pee...AGAIN. We FINALLY make it, and oddly enough, I beat Bee there. There are no bathrooms and I don't go in the woods. Bee got there. Snapped a few more times at me and I took my stuff and went to the stands to film. The game starts and the tape isn't rewound. I missed the first two plays. I'm steaming. It rains, it pours, the wind kicks up, flipped my umbrella, I had to miss three more plays to deal with that. Air Raid sirens went off ( I hear there was a tornado spotted near by). Our guys lose. 0-7. However, Bee made it there with all his guys, and he played so his mood is instantly improved. Mine is not. I snap at him. I feel bad, I apologize. I feel better. Then we hit the road and eventually stop for dinner and get greets me inside with a big smile and my heart melts and I feel better.
We get home, finally, and it's late. Kiddos hit the hay. I wait for Bee to finish dropping people off. He gets home and we cuddle up in his chair under the blanket and he asks me why I was so upset today. I tell him and he apologizes again and I was fine and over it. We spent the rest of the night cuddled, watching YouTube videos and "Nerd T.V" Eventually we fell asleep in the chair and at some point got up and got in bed.
Sunday we slept in and relaxed most of the day. Then we went and got his mom and met up with my whole family for dinner. It was really nice! The only down side is, being that it was Mother's day, it really got me thinking about me and Bee. How I want to get married, had kids of my own and kinda want to start on that soon. I want to be a mommy. A REAL mommy. Sure, I love his kids. I always will and that will never change. But, I want my own to have that special bond with. That feeling was intensified last night when I found out my best friend from when I was in high school got engaged this weekend. There was always an unspoken rivalry between us even though we were friends. We were 6 days apart. She was older and wanted to be the first to do everything (lose her virginity, get her license, have a boyfriend etc) but I was the more open, less bitchy, "prettier" one, so, I got to do all those things before her..and I always just kinda felt like I would be married with kids before her....but I guess not...
Oh well. This has turned into a long rambling post. Ha! All in all, it was a good weekend. Not anywhere near long enough and I was up waaayy too late last night and now today I am dragging. Bee and I both agreed, tonight it's early to bed!!
Friday, May 7, 2010
Spotlight on Little Man!
This is my Little Man. Sure, a lot of people calls their son that, but I call him "Little Man" because he really is like a Little Man. I love this little boy. You know, I am not saying this to pat myself on the back, but merely state a fact: Raising other people's kids is hard. It's a fine line to walk. On one hand, his dad needs help raising him and his sister. So, you step up and do the things a mom would do to give this boy a balanced upbringing. On the other hand, he HAS a REAL mom, and you can't take that away.....even though you want to because you think she is a worthless piece of shit. It's hard. But Him and his sister are worth it. This little man is only 7. Yet, I see signs of him already surpassing his 9 year old sister, who herself, has skipped a grade, in the learning department. He is always asking questions, paying close attention and not forgetting your answers. He watches closely when someone is doing something and will mimic it until he gets it right. Last night he asks me, "Have you ever been married? Do you want kids someday? Are you going to marry my dad? Could you please give me a baby brother or sister? I prefer a brother though. That way, I can show him how to play cars". When Bee and I were dating the first time around, Little Man was having a problem with reading. He didn't do it very well, now, just 6 months later, he is reading and comprehending books his older sister brings home. He is the only child I know who asks for math workbooks at Walmart and works in them diligently. He will watch T.V. with you, listen to a conversation you are having, or just plain look around the room, and name things off tell you how many letters are in each word, and then spell said word to you. 99.9% of the time, he is dead on.
Along with being smart, he is the most lovable little boy, once he gets to know you of course. :) He is shy and doesn't like to talk to people if he doesn't know them. However, once he knows you, he will gladly show you what a smart, funny, thoughtful, and silly little boy he can be :) I hope someday I have a little boy and if he grows up to be anything like Little Man, he will be a lucky little boy. :) I am honored to help raise this Little Man into a Smart, Kind, Loving, thoughtful, Respectful, BIG man someday!
I love this little guy because....
He is really good at climbing fences....even if he knows he's not supposed to...
Unlike his Daddy, he brings me flowers....and just because...
....And when I am sick, to make me "feel better"
He has a sense of style that can't be beat!
Makes me laugh when he is being silly. Especially when he asked for this picture to be taken and after seeing the results tells me, "Look! I am in jail, just like my mom!"
He is the best at sliding "so slow, that it looks like I am not even sliding at all!!"
He is great at faking being dead...
he is really good at "scaring" me while pretending to be a zombie...
He is the cutest little man I have the blessing of knowing and I am honored to be in his life.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
My Reasons to Smile....
These Kiddos: We are walking into Latch Key today and when they get out of the car, I noticed their outfits. They claim it was not done on purpose. I laughed, called them dorks, and then like the huge dork I am, I made them pose.
This Guy and HIS Smile: Looking at this face is the highlight of my day. His smile makes everything better!
Spending time with a Ninja: She knows just what to say, when to say it...or when to say nothing at all...
My Daybook Entry #7
Today is...
May 5th, 2010 - Cinqo De Mayo!
Outside My Window...
Sunny and warm. Right now we are in the mid 60's, but it's supposed to top out at 80 today!! Too bad it won't be this nice on Saturday when I'll be outside at Bee's game (60 and rainy :/ )
I am Thinking...
About how I need to let things go sometimes and not let them bother me so much. It's just hard though when you are in the moment and feeling wronged, or that an injustice has been done to you. Also, how on Sunday we are going to have a Huge clan going out to Dinner for Mommy's day. There's going to be Me, Bee, Grandma Bee (as in, Bee's mom, kid's grandma) "J" the 16 year old, "C", Little Man, Mom, Dad, Sis, Brother, His girlfriend and their two kiddos, and possibly BBF Rose and her son and another couple and their two wee ones. Wow! I am also thinking about how I really want to try the "Bouncy Bar" they were talking about on the radio. Ooo! and, how I want a morning margarita! And, who's gay? There was supposed to be some star that was coming out of the closet today...still haven't heard who it was yet!
I am thankful for...
The fact the plumber was able to fix the blockage on Friday, The Sun and warm weather today. Bee, Kiddos, family, and my mommy.
What I have learned this week...
That Volcano's, when they erupt, create their own weather systems!
I am wearing...
Green Camo fluffy flip flops, denim Capri's, pink tank top, brown button up sweater. Wednesday must be my day for brown. I am always wearing something brown... lol
I am creating...
Hopefully soon I will be creating buttons and key-chains for Bee's team to sell at games with the other owners wife! :)
I am going...
To Pittsburgh on Saturday for Bee's game! I love Pittsburgh. I would move there if it weren't for the fact their job market is worse than the one here and it's just as cold. I am trying to move towards warmth!
I am reading..."Two from Galilee" by Marjorie Holmes. Still. I am trying to find time to read, but it's hard. When I do find time to read, I find myself wanting to do other things.
I am hoping...
to finish cleaning the basement. The one thing good about this whole plumbing issue is that it has gotten Bee to start thinking about cleaning the rest of the basement! I am also hoping to give myself a pedicure tonight.
I am hearing...
Rhianna's "Rude Boy". I don't know why. It's probably because it's on the radio so much that I probably hear it 4 times on my way to work.
Around the House...
Kiddo's are enjoying Latch Key. In fact, they asked if they could start going early. When asked "how early is early?" They responded with 7am. These kids want to wake up at 6am so they can go to Latch Key at 7am. Holy S...We wake up at 7am now. I told them they could go at 6:45am if they just give me about a week and a half. I have Jury Duty starting May 19th. I have to be downtown by 8am and it's going to take me at least an hour drive time. That seemed to satisfy them. Bee is always a busy Bee, but even more so now with ordering uniforms, practices twice a week and pre-season games on Saturdays, fielding calls from players, plus working a full time job, it seems he is always going, going, going! As for me, I am trying to spend quality time with him and the kids, attend their various events, spend time with family, and my BFF Rose. It would be soooo much easier if the latter two were closer.
One of my Favorite things this week...
Seeing my BFF Rose, even if it wasn't how we had intended to spend time together, it was still nice and probably more fun (and cheaper) than if we would have done what we had originally planned. Oh, and getting my "just cuz" present from Bee :)
A Picture Thought...
Even at the ripe ole age of four, I was a sexy beast and knew how to work it for the camera. This was when I was in my "I want to be He-Man when I grow up" phase.. (it's a picture of a picture because we don't have a scanner..sorry if it's a little blurry..)
May 5th, 2010 - Cinqo De Mayo!
Outside My Window...
Sunny and warm. Right now we are in the mid 60's, but it's supposed to top out at 80 today!! Too bad it won't be this nice on Saturday when I'll be outside at Bee's game (60 and rainy :/ )
I am Thinking...
About how I need to let things go sometimes and not let them bother me so much. It's just hard though when you are in the moment and feeling wronged, or that an injustice has been done to you. Also, how on Sunday we are going to have a Huge clan going out to Dinner for Mommy's day. There's going to be Me, Bee, Grandma Bee (as in, Bee's mom, kid's grandma) "J" the 16 year old, "C", Little Man, Mom, Dad, Sis, Brother, His girlfriend and their two kiddos, and possibly BBF Rose and her son and another couple and their two wee ones. Wow! I am also thinking about how I really want to try the "Bouncy Bar" they were talking about on the radio. Ooo! and, how I want a morning margarita! And, who's gay? There was supposed to be some star that was coming out of the closet today...still haven't heard who it was yet!
I am thankful for...
The fact the plumber was able to fix the blockage on Friday, The Sun and warm weather today. Bee, Kiddos, family, and my mommy.
What I have learned this week...
That Volcano's, when they erupt, create their own weather systems!
I am wearing...
Green Camo fluffy flip flops, denim Capri's, pink tank top, brown button up sweater. Wednesday must be my day for brown. I am always wearing something brown... lol
I am creating...
Hopefully soon I will be creating buttons and key-chains for Bee's team to sell at games with the other owners wife! :)
I am going...
To Pittsburgh on Saturday for Bee's game! I love Pittsburgh. I would move there if it weren't for the fact their job market is worse than the one here and it's just as cold. I am trying to move towards warmth!
I am reading..."Two from Galilee" by Marjorie Holmes. Still. I am trying to find time to read, but it's hard. When I do find time to read, I find myself wanting to do other things.
I am hoping...
to finish cleaning the basement. The one thing good about this whole plumbing issue is that it has gotten Bee to start thinking about cleaning the rest of the basement! I am also hoping to give myself a pedicure tonight.
I am hearing...
Rhianna's "Rude Boy". I don't know why. It's probably because it's on the radio so much that I probably hear it 4 times on my way to work.
Around the House...
Kiddo's are enjoying Latch Key. In fact, they asked if they could start going early. When asked "how early is early?" They responded with 7am. These kids want to wake up at 6am so they can go to Latch Key at 7am. Holy S...We wake up at 7am now. I told them they could go at 6:45am if they just give me about a week and a half. I have Jury Duty starting May 19th. I have to be downtown by 8am and it's going to take me at least an hour drive time. That seemed to satisfy them. Bee is always a busy Bee, but even more so now with ordering uniforms, practices twice a week and pre-season games on Saturdays, fielding calls from players, plus working a full time job, it seems he is always going, going, going! As for me, I am trying to spend quality time with him and the kids, attend their various events, spend time with family, and my BFF Rose. It would be soooo much easier if the latter two were closer.
One of my Favorite things this week...
Seeing my BFF Rose, even if it wasn't how we had intended to spend time together, it was still nice and probably more fun (and cheaper) than if we would have done what we had originally planned. Oh, and getting my "just cuz" present from Bee :)
A Picture Thought...
Even at the ripe ole age of four, I was a sexy beast and knew how to work it for the camera. This was when I was in my "I want to be He-Man when I grow up" phase.. (it's a picture of a picture because we don't have a scanner..sorry if it's a little blurry..)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
"Just Cuz"
Friday night while we were down in the basement dealing with the plumbing issues, there was a giant bumble bee buzzing around. Bee smacked it down, killing it instantly. Yesterday night, while we were down in the basement cleaning up the aftermath (still), I saw the little guy's carcass lying on the floor. I picked him up and threw him away making the comment that I just gave his brethren a proper burial. Well, at least more proper than he did just leaving him to rot where he died. That's when Bee's eyes lit up and he said,
"Baby! I just remembered! I have a present for you!"
To which I exclaimed,
"ooh! Yay! I loooove Presents!"
Him and Grandma Bee had gone out for frozen custard after he got out of work yesterday. They had one of those claw game things and he played and won me a present!
"Baby! I just remembered! I have a present for you!"
To which I exclaimed,
"ooh! Yay! I loooove Presents!"
Him and Grandma Bee had gone out for frozen custard after he got out of work yesterday. They had one of those claw game things and he played and won me a present!
It's a picture frame in the "face" section! I have a bunch of pictures at my apartment and next time I go there, I am going to pick one to be encased in this guy. Until then, I have one of Bee's football pictures in there. He was so proud of his gift :) When I asked how he won it, because those claw games are hard, his response was "Just cuz I was thinking of you!"
Awww! I love my Bee! :)
Monday, May 3, 2010
Arizona's new law and other World News
I am going to take a step away from my personal life and talk for a few minutes on what my views are on hot topics in the news.
Arizona Immigration Law SB1070
I see nothing wrong with this law. Why do the bleeding hearts get so up in arms about this? It's not inhumane. It's not violating any one's rights. If you are not illegal, it shouldn't be an issue for you. In fact, if our Federal Government did it's job more efficiently, and provided more support at border crossings, this wouldn't even really be an issue. Here's the thing, folks. You want to live here? That's fine. There is always room at our table. However, do it legally. That's our law. If you want to live here, you need to follow our laws. Another thing is, our national Language is English. If you plan on living here, it would serve you well to learn our Language. You are free to speak whatever language you wish amongst yourselves when you are at home but, in public, it's English. I would not move to Mexico and expect everyone to learn English for me. But, back to the original point. There is nothing wrong with this law. It's actually been the law forever, it's just that now local law enforcement can ask for proof of your citizenship.
If I, a pale faced, white, natural born citizen of this fair Country of ours is out and about, weather it's driving in my car, walking down the street, hanging out at a mall, or sitting in the park, and am believed to be causing mischief, a police officer can stop me and question me. The first (ok, maybe second) thing he is going to ask for is my Driver's License or my ID, proving I am who I say I am. How is this any different? It's not like they can walk up to any foreign looking person for no reason and say "Show me your papers". Well, I suppose they can, just like they can walk up to me and ask me to show them mine as well, but this doesn't really happen. If it does, you can sue and really, civil liberties cases really get greedy lawyers salivating. If you are legal, it's a windfall for you. If you are not? Well, you shouldn't be here anyway. It's bad enough I have to shoulder the taxes and not health care of the lazy citizens of our Country (not saying illegal immigrants are lazy, because really, they aren't. They would be a good addition to our workforce if they were legal). At any rate, It makes me happy to say I am moving to a place that is finally following the law.
Eruption of a Volcano in Eyjafjallajokull, Iceland
Ok, First of all, it tickles me beyond pink that on Earth Day, the Christmas of Tree huggers everywhere, Half of Europe is darkened by a massive ash cloud thanks to this guy.
Volcano's are naturally occurring and have nothing to do with Global Warming or humans, yet the damage this guy did to the environment, not to mention the lungs of the inhabitants of the area, is off the charts. I personally think volcanoes are cool. Especially since I don't live near any. As a child though, I read this book about a Mexican Farmer who was plowing one of his fields and all of a sudden a hole burst through the ground and lava went shooting up into the sky and a new volcano was born. Scared the shit out of me. I was afraid to go outside for weeks. I was kind of a puss with an active imagination. Ha! Interesting point of mention, I did not know, until this happened, that Volcano's cause their own weather system. Their ash clouds have lightning and thunder. It still amazes me two weeks later. Bee's response? "You didn't know that?!" Hmmph. Whateve.
Oil Spill in the Gulf of Mexico
This sucks. Seriously. The damage this does to this already messed up coastline (thanks, Katrina). I know I make a fuss about bleeding hearts and tree huggers, but seriously, this effects a lot of people and animals. The animals are really the victims here because they can't just move. You can't give them FEMA vouchers and put them up in a hotel for a few weeks. The birds and fish get covered in that gook and can't move or breathe. Dawn dish soap is donating tons of it's product to the cause and they are already cleaning up the birds they can catch. I say set it all on fire. It can't be any worse for the environment then the massive ash cloud from the Volcano. What really is upsetting is the massive hike in gas prices this is going to cause. Sorry, but while I do care for the animals, I tend to mainly focus on how situations are going to affect me. Well, I am sure they will figure something out. They always do. I hope BP has some ideas.
Well, that's about all I have to say for now. Hopefully more tomorrow :)
Arizona Immigration Law SB1070
I see nothing wrong with this law. Why do the bleeding hearts get so up in arms about this? It's not inhumane. It's not violating any one's rights. If you are not illegal, it shouldn't be an issue for you. In fact, if our Federal Government did it's job more efficiently, and provided more support at border crossings, this wouldn't even really be an issue. Here's the thing, folks. You want to live here? That's fine. There is always room at our table. However, do it legally. That's our law. If you want to live here, you need to follow our laws. Another thing is, our national Language is English. If you plan on living here, it would serve you well to learn our Language. You are free to speak whatever language you wish amongst yourselves when you are at home but, in public, it's English. I would not move to Mexico and expect everyone to learn English for me. But, back to the original point. There is nothing wrong with this law. It's actually been the law forever, it's just that now local law enforcement can ask for proof of your citizenship.If I, a pale faced, white, natural born citizen of this fair Country of ours is out and about, weather it's driving in my car, walking down the street, hanging out at a mall, or sitting in the park, and am believed to be causing mischief, a police officer can stop me and question me. The first (ok, maybe second) thing he is going to ask for is my Driver's License or my ID, proving I am who I say I am. How is this any different? It's not like they can walk up to any foreign looking person for no reason and say "Show me your papers". Well, I suppose they can, just like they can walk up to me and ask me to show them mine as well, but this doesn't really happen. If it does, you can sue and really, civil liberties cases really get greedy lawyers salivating. If you are legal, it's a windfall for you. If you are not? Well, you shouldn't be here anyway. It's bad enough I have to shoulder the taxes and not health care of the lazy citizens of our Country (not saying illegal immigrants are lazy, because really, they aren't. They would be a good addition to our workforce if they were legal). At any rate, It makes me happy to say I am moving to a place that is finally following the law.
Eruption of a Volcano in Eyjafjallajokull, Iceland
Ok, First of all, it tickles me beyond pink that on Earth Day, the Christmas of Tree huggers everywhere, Half of Europe is darkened by a massive ash cloud thanks to this guy.
Volcano's are naturally occurring and have nothing to do with Global Warming or humans, yet the damage this guy did to the environment, not to mention the lungs of the inhabitants of the area, is off the charts. I personally think volcanoes are cool. Especially since I don't live near any. As a child though, I read this book about a Mexican Farmer who was plowing one of his fields and all of a sudden a hole burst through the ground and lava went shooting up into the sky and a new volcano was born. Scared the shit out of me. I was afraid to go outside for weeks. I was kind of a puss with an active imagination. Ha! Interesting point of mention, I did not know, until this happened, that Volcano's cause their own weather system. Their ash clouds have lightning and thunder. It still amazes me two weeks later. Bee's response? "You didn't know that?!" Hmmph. Whateve.Oil Spill in the Gulf of Mexico
This sucks. Seriously. The damage this does to this already messed up coastline (thanks, Katrina). I know I make a fuss about bleeding hearts and tree huggers, but seriously, this effects a lot of people and animals. The animals are really the victims here because they can't just move. You can't give them FEMA vouchers and put them up in a hotel for a few weeks. The birds and fish get covered in that gook and can't move or breathe. Dawn dish soap is donating tons of it's product to the cause and they are already cleaning up the birds they can catch. I say set it all on fire. It can't be any worse for the environment then the massive ash cloud from the Volcano. What really is upsetting is the massive hike in gas prices this is going to cause. Sorry, but while I do care for the animals, I tend to mainly focus on how situations are going to affect me. Well, I am sure they will figure something out. They always do. I hope BP has some ideas.Well, that's about all I have to say for now. Hopefully more tomorrow :)
Sunday, May 2, 2010
The weekend is over..
Well, it's Sunday again. Where does the weekend go? Friday night we had a crisis. The sewer backed up into the basement and flooded the laundry room with about an inch of raw sewage. Yeah. Not fun. I had lots of laundry to do too. Bee had a game on Saturday and the kiddos were going to "her" parents house to go down to Dayton for a cousin's first communion and Bee was told to have me pack "the kid's nice things. Yeah, thanks for the advance notice...
We ended up calling a plumber who came out fixed the issue and I was able to wash Bee's things. As for the kiddo's, we just went to Walmart and bought them each a new outfit. They needed a nice summer outfit for dress occasions anyway.
Saturday morning we were up at 7am. I got the kids up and ready for Grandma and Grandpas house and Bee ran them over. In the meantime, I took my cable box back to the cable company because I am never at my home to watch it and why waste the money? Then, I picked up his 16 year old from Grandma Bee's and we came back and went to Bee's game.
The game was great! They won 18-2 and played really well. They are coming together nicely as a team! After the game, we hung out with the guys for a bit and the two teams got to talk and have a beer or two with each other and talk some football! Then, we left and met up with BFF Rose to grab some dinner and a few drinks. Afterwards, BFF Rose came back to the house and Bee went to bed while her and I stayed up to 3am cackling like the hens we are :) I love when she comes out and hangs with me. I miss her so much and I like that Bee can be included too!
Today, we all slept in and then I went to my mom and dad's to help with house stuff while Bee watched film with a team mate. After I got back, he went and got the kids from Grandma and Grandpa's house. Apparently, Grandma told Bee to tell me that she apologizes for being rude to me the one time I met her. You see, she stopped by one day when we were dating before. It was unannounced and luckily the kids weren't here. She went off on Bee, and then off on me saying some very nasty and un Christian like things to me (ie: whore, harlet, making her grand kids's house a den of inequity etc) She also apparently said to the kids as well as Bee to tell me that next time he comes out to their house, for me to come too. She wants meet me. Apologize in person. Get to know me since her grand kids and Bee seem to adore me so much. I can't be THAT bad, right?
I am horrified to go, but I will. I will go because I love and respect bee and these kiddos and I don't want to be the one thing that keeps the grandparents from seeing the kids and therefore hurting them. I know what it's like not growing up with grandparents...I will also go because I feel like I am getting painted in the wrong light. I want them to know I am not the enemy. I am not a bad person and while we will never be close, one day we will all be family in one way or another and they need to get used to me. I am horrified to go because if she starts talking to me like she did that day, well, she already got her one free pass...I won't be able to hold my tongue any longer and while I am a sweet, loving, happy girl....I have known to make people cry because of the words that have come from my mouth when they have done or said something to my family that was uncalled for....
So, that's about it. Perhaps, they will accept the fact that Bee and I are for real and I am not going anywhere and pass the message along to their daughter and Bee and I can have a normal life for the first time since we've known each other....
She shall see. In the meantime, I am going to finish my tasty beverage and head to bed! Wonder what kind of adventures I will have next week....
We ended up calling a plumber who came out fixed the issue and I was able to wash Bee's things. As for the kiddo's, we just went to Walmart and bought them each a new outfit. They needed a nice summer outfit for dress occasions anyway.
Saturday morning we were up at 7am. I got the kids up and ready for Grandma and Grandpas house and Bee ran them over. In the meantime, I took my cable box back to the cable company because I am never at my home to watch it and why waste the money? Then, I picked up his 16 year old from Grandma Bee's and we came back and went to Bee's game.
The game was great! They won 18-2 and played really well. They are coming together nicely as a team! After the game, we hung out with the guys for a bit and the two teams got to talk and have a beer or two with each other and talk some football! Then, we left and met up with BFF Rose to grab some dinner and a few drinks. Afterwards, BFF Rose came back to the house and Bee went to bed while her and I stayed up to 3am cackling like the hens we are :) I love when she comes out and hangs with me. I miss her so much and I like that Bee can be included too!
Today, we all slept in and then I went to my mom and dad's to help with house stuff while Bee watched film with a team mate. After I got back, he went and got the kids from Grandma and Grandpa's house. Apparently, Grandma told Bee to tell me that she apologizes for being rude to me the one time I met her. You see, she stopped by one day when we were dating before. It was unannounced and luckily the kids weren't here. She went off on Bee, and then off on me saying some very nasty and un Christian like things to me (ie: whore, harlet, making her grand kids's house a den of inequity etc) She also apparently said to the kids as well as Bee to tell me that next time he comes out to their house, for me to come too. She wants meet me. Apologize in person. Get to know me since her grand kids and Bee seem to adore me so much. I can't be THAT bad, right?
I am horrified to go, but I will. I will go because I love and respect bee and these kiddos and I don't want to be the one thing that keeps the grandparents from seeing the kids and therefore hurting them. I know what it's like not growing up with grandparents...I will also go because I feel like I am getting painted in the wrong light. I want them to know I am not the enemy. I am not a bad person and while we will never be close, one day we will all be family in one way or another and they need to get used to me. I am horrified to go because if she starts talking to me like she did that day, well, she already got her one free pass...I won't be able to hold my tongue any longer and while I am a sweet, loving, happy girl....I have known to make people cry because of the words that have come from my mouth when they have done or said something to my family that was uncalled for....
So, that's about it. Perhaps, they will accept the fact that Bee and I are for real and I am not going anywhere and pass the message along to their daughter and Bee and I can have a normal life for the first time since we've known each other....
She shall see. In the meantime, I am going to finish my tasty beverage and head to bed! Wonder what kind of adventures I will have next week....
This says it all...
That's Bee kissing our friend Matt on the helmet. Matt just scored a touchdown. He was quite pumped! ;) They both were. Actually, the whole team was! We had our first "W" this year on Saturday. It doesn't count towards our standing in the league because it was a pre-season game.Still, an 18-2 victory is just what these guys needed for a morale boost. Way to get 'em boys!
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